SPEED (A 44 Chapters Novel Book 2) Read online

  Speed

  BB Easton

  Contents

  Copyright

  Warning

  Introduction

  Glossary

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  Chapter 39

  Chapter 40

  Chapter 41

  Chapter 42

  Chapter 43

  Chapter 44

  Epilogue

  The End

  Playlist

  Books by BB

  Newsletter

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  Copyright © 2017 by BB Easton

  Published by Art by Easton

  All rights reserved.

  No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system without the written permission of the author, except for the use of brief quotations in a book review.

  ISBN: 978-0-9967906-6-6

  e-book ISBN: 978-0-9967906-7-3

  Cover Photography and Design by BB Easton

  Editing by Jovana Shirley of Unforeseen Editing (www.unforeseenediting.com)

  and Ellie McLove of Love N Books (www.lovenbooks.com)

  Paperback Formatting by Nadege Richards of Inkstain Design Studio (www.inkstaindesignstudio.com)

  E-book Formatting by Staci Hart (www.stacihartnovels.com)

  SPEED is a work of fiction based on characters and events introduced in BB Easton’s memoir, 44 Chapters About 4 Men. While the settings and many of the situations portrayed in this book are true to life, the physical characteristics and names of all characters other than BB have been altered to protect the identities of everyone involved. Any resemblance to an actual living person is purely coincidental.

  Due to excessive profanity, violence, graphic sexual content, and themes of juvenile drug use and delinquency, this book is not intended for—and should probably be completely hidden from—anyone under the age of eighteen.

  This book is dedicated to my parents. Consider it my apology for bringing a twenty-two-year-old ex-con with a tattoo on his head home for dinner…when I was only sixteen.

  An apology that you are never, ever allowed to read—ever.

  There are two types of people in this world—those who’ve read my memoir, 44 Chapters About 4 Men, and those who have not. Both types are welcome here. Unless, of course, you belong to one of those groups and your last name also happens to be Bradley or Easton. In that case, the odds of us being related by blood or marriage are simply too high for me to allow you to proceed. Please, Ms. Bradley, put the book down and back away slowly. Trust me on this, Mr. Easton. It’s for your own good.

  If your last name is not Bradley or Easton and this is your first dose of Harley James, hold on to your ass. He is the ultimate baby-faced bad boy, and he took me on the ride of my life. Pun not intended! Harley’s character is loosely based on an actual ex-boyfriend of mine, but his name, identifying characteristics, and personality traits have been altered and/or exaggerated to the point that not even his mama would recognize him. I mean, she’d have her suspicions, but she couldn’t prove a damn thing.

  If you belong to the former group, then you’ve already been introduced to Mr. Harley James—two versions of him actually. You saw him portrayed as a lovable moron in my real-life journal entries and as a fictionalized lothario in the ones I left out for Ken to stumble upon. Well, I am happy to report that the fictionalized-lothario Harley is the one starring in this book while the plot, setting, and time line are based on mostly true events. I tried to give you guys the best of both worlds—the sexy, dangerous, tattooed hero and a gritty, raw, true-life story.

  Like I said in SKIN, this book is my truth—it’s just not one hundred percent the truth.

  (In this case, it’s more like sixty-five percent. Seventy-five, tops.)

  Enjoy the ride!

  ATV (abv.)—All-Terrain Vehicle.

  AWOL (abv.)—Away Without Leave. A military term used in reference to soldiers who have left their posts without proper clearance.

  Bajillion (noun)—a made-up number somewhere between one billion and a shitload.

  Benzo (noun)—Slang. An illicitly used antianxiety pill belonging to the benzodiazepine classification. Examples include Xanax, Valium, Ativan, and Klonopin.

  Crotch Rocket (noun)—Slang. A specific type of imported motorcycle, characterized by a lightweight, aerodynamic body and favored by street racers.

  Cumtrillionth (noun)—a person’s bajillionth orgasm.

  Dip (noun)—Slang. Chewing tobacco.

  DMV (abv.)—Department of Motor Vehicles.

  Doobie (noun)—Slang. A term hippies use in reference to a hand-rolled marijuana cigarette.

  Factory/Stock (adj.)—a vehicle with no aftermarket modifications.

  Fastback (adj.)—the sexiest muscle car body style ever made, characterized by a roofline that slopes in one continuous line down the back of the car to the rear spoiler.

  Five-oh (noun)—Slang. A Ford Mustang with a five-liter V8 engine, produced from 1979–1993. The term refers to a small silver emblem affixed behind the front-wheel wells on this particular model that read 5.0.

  Fishtail (verb)—Slang. When the back end of a vehicle slides from side to side due to a handling or traction problem.

  Flophouse (noun)—Slang. Cheap or free lodging with minimal amenities, often inhabited by several people at once and used as a place to hide from the police and/or do drugs.

  Four twenty-nine (noun)—Slang. A vintage Mustang with a 429 cubic-inch engine.

  Gutter punk (noun)—Slang. A homeless or transient youth whose appearance and lifestyle choices are associated with the punk subculture.

  Head Shop (noun)—a retail store specializing in marijuana and tobacco paraphernalia.

  Hooptie (noun)—Slang. A large, older model American sedan, often in poor condition but equipped with flashy aftermarket modifications.

  Jarhead (noun)—Slang. A derogatory term used to describe a member of the United States Marine Corps. It is in reference to the flattop-style haircut that many Marines have, which makes their heads appear to be jar-shaped.

  Jackalope (noun)—a mythical creature of North American folklore, created when deer antlers are affixed to a taxidermic jackrabbit.

  Juvie (noun)—Slang. Juvenile Detention Center. A prison-like institution for minors.

  Kegger (noun)—Slang. Keg party. A social gathering of teens and young adults centered around a metal barrel full of cheap, piss-colored beer.

  MDMA (abv.)—the street drug methylenedioxymethamphetamine, commonly referred to as ecstasy.

  Motorhead (noun)—Slang. A car/racing enthu
siast who has a wealth of knowledge about auto mechanics.

  Mudding (verb)—Slang. Driving an all-terrain or four-wheel-drive vehicle off-road in muddy areas, such as creek beds or fields after a hard rain. The objective of this recreational activity is to get one’s vehicle as filthy as possible without getting it stuck.

  Narced (verb, past tense)—Slang. To inform the police or authorities that someone is in the possession of illegal drugs. Derived from the word narcotics.

  Natty Ice (noun)—Slang. Natural Ice, an inexpensive brand of American beer, favored by rednecks.

  Nine-eleven (noun)—Slang. A Porsche 911 model.

  Peater (noun)—Slang. A made-up word for a passive cheater.

  POS (abv.)—Piece Of Shit.

  Priors (noun, plural)—Slang. Prior convictions.

  Racing slicks (noun, plural)—Special racing tires that are extra wide and have a smooth surface rather than tread.

  Rager (noun)—See Kegger.

  RBF (abv.)—Resting Bitch Face.

  Redneck (noun)—Slang. A derogatory term used to describe a rural, working-class white person from the southeastern United States. The term refers to the tendency for men from these backgrounds to have sunburns on the backs of their necks due to working manual labor jobs outside.

  Rolling (verb)—Slang. To be high on MDMA/ecstasy.

  RPM (abv.)—Revolutions Per Minute.

  Shittastic (adj.)—the polar opposite of fantastic.

  SoCo (abv.)—Slang. Southern Comfort, a brand of whiskey.

  Spoiler (noun)—a flap or arch on the back of a car, designed to reduce drag and improve aerodynamics.

  Skin (noun)—Slang. A member of the skinhead subculture.

  Torque (noun)—an automotive measurement of how quickly a vehicle will accelerate, considered more important than horsepower in short-distance street racing.

  Twenty-twos (noun)—Slang. Twenty-two-inch wheels.

  Wifebeater (noun)—Slang. A fitted, ribbed white cotton tank top designed to be worn by men as an undergarment. The term refers to the abusive, working-class male characters who tend to wear these garments in classic American films.

  Winch (noun)—a motorized rotating drum designed to reel in a length of cable attached to something very heavy. For example, a truck that has gotten stuck in the mud, like a little bitch.

  June 1998

  When I woke up on my sixteenth birthday, I didn’t leap out of bed to go get my driver’s license. I wasn’t thinking about the appointment I had to buy my first car that afternoon—a car that I’d been saving for since the day I turned fifteen and was legally able to work. I didn’t give two shits about going to the mall, or opening presents, or eating a fucking piece of fucking cake. All I wanted for my birthday was to sleep through it, because whenever I was awake, so was my gnawing, soul-crushing pain. I could feel it chewing through the lining of my stomach, devouring my once-bubbly personality, sucking the energy from my bones like marrow, swallowing my will to live. Being eaten alive hurt. Being awake hurt. Being asleep didn’t.

  I reluctantly opened my eyes and glanced over at the nightstand. The red numbers on the clock announced that I’d slept past noon again. The blueberry muffin sitting next to it with a candle shoved haphazardly in the top told me that my mom must have come in and tried to wake me up. My wide-open blinds, which were letting in an obscene amount of summer sun, let me know that she’d tried more than once. And that little white pill and glass of water on my nightstand? Well, those only pissed me off.

  I sat up and squinted at the assorted bullshit on the table until I spotted my pack of Camel Lights. Swinging my spindly legs over the edge of the mattress, I reached past the food and water, opting for poison instead. I lit a cigarette and waited for that comforting, calming first inhalation to do its thing, but even smoking had become joyless. Just like everything else, I was going through the motions.

  Hand to mouth.

  Inhale.

  Exhale.

  Repeat.

  I ashed my cigarette in an empty Altoids tin on the nightstand and stared at the pill my mother had left for me—the tiny white hope that had turned out to be just another disappointment. I picked it up and inspected it. If it hadn’t had the word PROZAC stamped on the side of it, I would have assumed they’d just been giving me Tic Tacs.

  That shit did nothing. Nothing but mute the vibrant colors of my world to a dirty, dull gray. Instead of my feelings being a violent riot of bitter, angry crimsons, churning, crashing ceruleans, and blinking, cautionary yellows, my inner world was now as gray as the cloud of smoke that hung four feet above the floor and three feet below the ceiling in my bedroom. As gray as my skin, which now draped between my ribs and puddled in the hollows of my cheeks and eye sockets.

  As gray as the fading knight tattoo on the inside of my wedding ring finger.

  I threw the glorified breath mint across the room and listened to the plink, plink, plink sound it made as it bounced off the wall, onto my “desk”—which was just two filing cabinets and an old door that my mom had scrounged up at Goodwill and spray-painted black—and landed in a heap of shiny Army-green nylon on the floor.

  My chest felt as if someone had come up behind me and yanked the laces on an invisible corset. Tears stabbed at the corners of my eyes as images began flashing, unbidden, behind them. Images of a skinhead standing behind me at my locker, sliding a tiny green flight jacket up my arms and over my shoulders to warm my perma-chilled skin. Images of his smile when he turned me around to admire the fit. I’d never seen him smile before. Not like that. I’d wanted to make him smile again, but instead, I made him scowl when I told him I couldn’t keep his gift. When I rejected him, just like everyone else had.

  I squeezed my eyes shut and pressed the heels of my palms into them, trying to rid myself of the memory. The flashbacks were only getting worse. The doctor had acted like this was a simple case of normal teenage depression. Like all I needed was a little Prozac and some R&R to clear it up. Like watching your psychopathic, steroid-fueled skinhead boyfriend beat a man to death was normal. Like losing your childhood best friend to suicide and helping your hemorrhaging best friend deliver a baby in the same day was normal. Like having your first love suddenly join the Marines right before you found out that he might have cheated on you with a guy was normal.

  Well, it didn’t fucking feel normal. It felt heavy. The gravity of those compounded traumas was pulling me under, and I was too weak to swim to the surface. Too tired. Instead, I just sat on the bottom of the deep end and wondered how long I could hold my breath. Although my eyes stung from peering through nicotine instead of chlorine, my slowed, effortful movements, the weight pressing down on me, the alternating bouts of panic and resignation were all the same.

  I was drowning.

  Just not fast enough.

  Without thinking, I stamped out my cigarette and stood up. Stars danced before my teary eyes, and tunnel vision threatened, but I pushed through the dizziness, fueled by my pain. Grabbing the vile baked good on my nightstand, I headed toward my parents’ master bathroom in search of relief.

  Out of habit, I crumbled the muffin into the toilet and flushed, destroying the evidence. I used to not eat because I wanted to be skinnier, prettier, Kate Mossier. Now, I didn’t eat because I couldn’t fucking eat.

  Because I was the one being eaten.

  In a frenzy, I threw open my mom’s medicine cabinet, fully prepared to swallow the contents of anything and everything I could get my hands on just to make the ache go away.

  But it was empty.

  I yanked the mirror on my dad’s side of the double vanity away from the wall as well. Empty. The stash of prescription opiates, antianxiety medications, and muscle relaxers I had known I would find there was just gone. Even the over-the-counter painkillers and cough syrups had vanished into thin air. Rummaging through their drawers, cabinets, closets, dressers, I found nothing but toiletries, makeup, and clothes.

  No.

  No.
/>   No!

  My heart raced as the room began to tilt on its axis. I’d rushed in there, expecting to find the exit to my worst nightmare, but instead, I’d found myself trapped inside. There was no escape, and the walls were closing in.

  Struggling to breathe, I clutched the edge of the bathroom counter and screamed, “Mom! Moooooom!”

  My knees gave out before I heard her footsteps make it to the top of our squeaky stairs.

  “Jesus Christ, BB,” my mother said as she walked in on her emaciated daughter kneeling in front of her vanity with her forehead pressed to the cabinet door. “What’s wrong?”